Poem of inner

We enter the room together
The look you give me is unclear
Is this love or crush
My mind is blank when your near
Far apart are we in this life
My heart beat's without your love, light, guidance
Do you want to stay or shall we part
My mind can't bare what it does
It juggle's and run's nonstop
Inside my world is crumbling divided amongst the war between the two
My mind my heart both hurt from what they do

Away miles, hours, days, months is where I am
My heart and mind numb lay wasted upon the ground
Can't move can't feel myself
What is this feeling I can't feel
Numbness but I still feel?
Why is this happening when can it stop
where will it stop
deep down it goes the emptiness the unfeeling
can we be alright are we still in love
Was this just a crush perhaps we will never know
Neither of us are backing down
We walk the path along side to each other
But will we make it all the way through?

Distance of bubbles

Looking through the glass bubble around himself watching those walking around. Everyone could see the bubble, as it reflected their own bodies and movements. Sitting there inside the bubble a few would come up and stare at themselves in the reflection. He smiled softly his face turned red of embarrassment lifting his hand up giving a slow wave. Soon as they got near, something would happen and they'd walk away rejoining others.

Day's and time goes by as he watched them all from a distance, at night when they were all gone. He sat alone looking up at the sky seeing the millions of lights in the dark. As time goes by his eyes would close sleeping inside his bubble, only to open them when he felt the light of the sun against his face. Standing up inside the bubble stretching and walking around in circles to keep himself moving.

His eyes looking up following those that had routines in the morning. Soon he seen a small child was sitting near his bubble, his focus when to them. Their back was to him looking like they were fiddling with something, leaning his head over trying to see but the bubble stopped his movement to see only getting a glimpse of something in their hand. He was curious but soon sat down watching the little child later the child placed the object down and ran off after they were called to join their parents.

 He watched the child then the object they had, it was a small device of some kind. He tilted his head wondering what it was, but his attention would go back to the others watching them in their day. It had been years, watching them all from a distance his need or want to join them was close to nonexistent anymore.

Some days the closest one of them would come to him would be to sit nearby only inches away even fewer actually reached out touching the bubble. His hand would met theirs as if to say 'i'm here' The touch only lasted moments before they would leave. His hand still feeling the hand on the other side before it drifted away. Each time it happened tears ran down his face before backing up into the center of the bubble feeling his fingers that touched the bubble.

One night as the streets were clear nobody could be seen or heard for miles. He stood in the middle of the bubble tears falling with rage throwing his body against the bubble pushing. Throwing his fists about trying to break free, Nothing seemed to work as the hour was floating by but what he didn't notice was the bubble was moving with each slam of his fist.

Panting as he yelled out a cry, jumping up and slamming his fist down into the bubble. It moved and began tumbling him around as the bubble rolled down the hill, and into the street. He cried as he could felt each landing of the bubble against the cold cement and object that crashed into the bubble as it rolled. Tumbling and rolling him around like a pinball down the street's grade.

He cried out for help but all could be heard was the roar of the bubble ball rampaging down the street smacking into vehicle's, pole's. It felt like eternity before the bubble was stopped laying upon the ground. Touching his body that was sore and beaten, slowly lifting his head he could see the sun rising in the horizon a sight he normally wasn't awake for. He stayed there watching the sun rise tears rolling down his face.

The sun looked so far away, but it was the same day after day. Laying there in tears, he soon seen something he hadn't before. Another but this one was in the sun crying in tears. Slowly shifting around so he was onto his feet standing there limping to one side. He began yelling as loud as he could waving his arms about, but it wasn't enough.

The other was still crying, a tear soaked smile creeped up onto his face as he flailed his arms about yelling as loud as he could. Someone like him he thought they would know his pain if only he could get them to notice him somehow some way.

The other soon laid down curling up in a ball, yelling out as loud as he could as much as he could but nothing seemed to work. Tears slowly rolling down his face again his pain coming back of not being noticed or heard from anyone.

But now he had someone else that knew the pain, he suffered another that he only wanted to be seen. As he moved around the ball began moving around shaking him from where he stopped. He fell to the side as the ball moved to the side as well and then back to where he was slightly stuck to. 

"He.."

 "Heh" Looking up at the sun then back down at the ball kicking himself up into the air and kicking the side of the ball as it rolled he stumbled almost tripping. He bite his tongue like a hamster in a wheel, he ran as fast as he could and soon after the ball was out of the place he was stuck. Rolling down street after street glancing up at the sun still trying to get their attention.

"HEY!!" He yelled out no more tears no more crying he told himself using his body to move this barrier this prison.

Waving his arms about trying to get their attention. He wasn't familiar with anything around him but it seemed his bubble or prison was only making people run away from it. Soon blocks from police began being made to block him in to try and stop it. 

"Noo I need to get out I need to move.. " he yelled coming to a street with a large barrier built up as he frowned crashing into the barrier and finally stopped he fell to the ground hitting the bottom of it 

"Nooo..."

"I.."

"I was so close..." he cried looking up at the sun seeing the one in the sun was watching him looking right at him. He jumped up quickly to his feet and waved frantically. Looking surprised she lifted her hand up slowly giving a wave herself back to him as they both smiled.

Cranes came to the large sphere hauling it back to it's place. The humans trying to figure out how it got free then began making changes, putting the sphere back in place with more restrains in place. Sitting at the bottom of the sphere looking up at the girl in the sun with a smile. He rubbed the back of his head he was a bit beat up from the tumble and event that just took place. 

Looking up at her as she looked at him, "Hi!" he said excitedly but she didn't say anything. Sitting in silence as both seemed to try and speak to be heard but neither could hear the other.

Days would go by both would seem to try to communicate with each other making existing feel like an adventure than a tragedy. Night's were just as fun having found the man in the moon communicating with him as well it was enjoyable and fun. 

Sometimes the sun and moon were together in the day time although when they were together. He was a bit out of place as their attentions were to each other talking laughing throughout the day. Watching as he was getting jealous of the two, they could talk laugh joke. He was only there to watch.

All around him were humans at arms length sometimes passing him by not even paying any attention to his existence. The days seemed to go by quicker now as the sun and moon continued talking laughing joking around.

 Sitting there watching them both wondering what their voices sounded like, what they talk about. That night he stood up and went back to doing what he would usually do before finding the sun and moon. Jogging in place and stretching out some in his own bubble. Looking over at the trees as they bend and sway in the wind.

Blinking some as he thought he seen something for a moment as he leaned over to the edge of the sphere trying to see what it was. "What was that?" He said aloud wondering if he was seeing things. Looking at the sphere he was in. 

"I don't want to go rolling again."

"That hurt ha." Looking around for a moment as his thoughts went deeper soon falling asleep. His body tossing and turning he was used to the loud noises of the city not noticing that his sphere was being moved.

A crane in the daylight was moving him out of the spot he was in then placed onto the back of a truck. "Hmm?" 

"Whats."

"Going on?" He yawned waking up to the rumbling of his sphere. As he opened his eyes everything was moving.

"AH! WHAT?! I'M ROLLING!! I DIDN'T DO IT THIS TIME I SWEAR!" The sphere came to a stop, as he looked round seeing that the sphere was strapped onto a flatbed truck and was being moved to a different location. 

"What.."

"whats going on here? Where am I going?" 

The truck continued out of the city, "Where am I going?" He kept asking coming out of the city, seeing the trees and mountains that were far from the city.

"What is this place?" He asked in awe, at the beauty of the view he was being given by the truck. Standing up as the sphere edge and placed his face against it wanting to see everything he could. 

"Wow" He was in shock of the amazing things, objects. Laughing while having his face glued to the side of the sphere. 

The different kinds of birds that flew by, "Whoa! hey! You're a huge pigeon! ha ha! Your a funny looking pigeon!" Looking at all the different kinds of birds, then other animals at night when the truck stopped for the night.

"Hey little guys."

"Shh quiet good night to you hey do you know where I am?" He asked but didn't usually get an answer from any of the animals.

"Okay thanks for your help.." He said as the animals wondered away. 

"Wow just wow."

"This is so cool!" it was quiet as he could hear himself and all the little noises. "HELLO!!!" If he yelled out loud he heard his own echo, having read about it when people would read around him. He had learned about so many things how to read and spell when schools had their classes outside.

Laughing and enjoying this time he had it was amazing looking up at the moon as he tried speaking with him. Although it didn't seem like he wanted to talk the man in the moon has his back turned to him. 

"Oh.. okay well don't worry about it. I'll see you later okay? I'm getting tired so I'm going to take a quick nap." Waking up in the morning to the truck driving on the road again, "Heh.. wow this is awesome.. I wonder if this is what my life is going to be like now? Seeing new things." He said to himself looking up at the sun waving at her.

She wasn't looking over towards him, "she probably can't see me i'm not.." Jumping up to his feet waving around. "I'm here!!! Hey i'm here!! OVER HERE!" Jumping and waving, but to no avail not even a side glance.

"No.. i'm.. i'm over here.. see me notice me.. please?" Sitting back down slowly as he lifted his knees up to his chest holding them to him. "I'm alone again.. she can't see me.. hear me neither of them can."

Staying seated watching the scenery move as he slowly laid down. It was useless to resist there was nothing he could do now. Staring at the scenery he would smile some his views of what he could see was amazing. Everything was so new and he was enjoying it even though he was by himself.

"New place.. wherever I'm going.. new me. I have to keep it up and go on. I'm alone again but come on we've always been alone right?" Talking to himself looking at the reflection in the passing car windows. There was a huge boulder that had details and textures all around it from what he could see.

Twinkle twinkle in light

The light's don't do you justice, I see you though this midnight mirror, I see the color's you shed. What a brilliant mind you hide away. Your body, the looks you give are an act I can see that. I watch and wait maybe you'll look my way. I see other's jumping to your beak and call but do you really remember them at all? Are they what you want what you really seek. I guess ill just be here alone in the shadow watching not even a whisper. How I want to scream it out but will you hear me? Am I so different what do i lack that they possess to have you look at them with such kindness in your eyes. I guess my time was up before I knew it too late now I blew it. I had a chance to change everything but how did I know you didn't give me the time of day.

Thoughts of what could have been should have been will never been. I never had a chance to be.

Big bad tiger

My little red where are you?
You don't come around anymore. Has your grandma pass, so you find no reason to wonder? Have you found no interest in these old woods?
Do the light's in the city shine too bright for you to see?
Come to my woods with me ill be here to show you around.
I've waited for someone like you to come though. All these other's were only for show and now their gone.
Alone I wonder my paths time and time again. Your voice only echoes in my mind now did you ever come through or was that my mind witching it were true.
Im not the big bad wolf in your story's you've heard. Im far worse far more dangerous and far less innocent. But we know better than that now don't we?
My riding hood where have you gone? One day we will meet maybe we have but were both too blind to see. You need me i know you do.

Cause I need you too

Signed
Ludo

Road's less traveled

A crayon zoom's along a white piece of paper mixing and colliding with other color's. Sitting at the coffee table along with the rest of his color's. In his own little world not minding that voice's from outside his head were yelling screaming at all angle's. A bright smile upon his face as he stood up with his drawing in hand and ran excitedly towards the voice's. "LOOK!! I DID!" Was all he heard before everything went black, years later drawing with pencil's and markers. In school as classmate's were drawing, coloring, talking among themselves. He sat there bouncing up and down excited and happy as the teacher called out to the student's that art time was done and to show what they did.

He was excited to see so many other kid's along with him waiting his turn while bouncing some in his seat he couldn't wait to show off what he could do. One by one classmate's went up to the front, showing their drawing's. One by one each of their drawings got better, better and better he was in a classroom filled with so much talent. Looking at his picture 'what was it again I drew? I don't remember.. their so much better than me..' His name was called as he rushed up with a large smile upon his face and took a deep breath yelling out and showing his drawing being so proud and happy with his work. There was silence for a moment before darkness took hold showing him year later.

Walking into the doctor's office with his parent's sitting down it was a check up. Looking around the office was so bright and everything was so huge. Walking into the room he could hear whispers and talking among the adult's, his own ear's picking up his name and a few word's but nothing made sense. Soon he was handed a pill, looking at it then looking at his parents which gestured for him to take it. He hesitated for a moment before taking the pill then a fog came over him swallowing the pill and without hour's the sound's of his parents were like a dream. Each morning, noon, night more, more pill's almost different each time his head went from foggy to darkness.

Fighting though school fighting his classmate's wanting to fit in be their friend, even a pretend spouse. He just wanted to belong, even when he got excited bouncing around and yelling out. He was hyper he had ADHD, ADD he was a child. The medicine had taken hold of him now, staring off into space forgetting the day's only remembering random part's of things. The pill's will help you focus, concentrate make it so your not hyper so you will be like the other kid's and behave. Looking around all the other kid's didn't have to take pill's they were normal and were allowed to be just that. They ran, played, broke the rule's but if he did it then he was being wrong and rude, a bad kid.

'Why don't you grow up?' 'stop being a bad kid' 'stop being you' Phase's and more he heard through growing up year's past still in school. It was a rare thing for him to have a friend and there he was on the bus standing over his 'friend' crying out being stuffed in between the seat's unable to move. Looking around as he heard the bus driver yell out, quickly pulling up his 'friend' from in between the seat's scared and silent darkness was his 'friend' now. Day's were a blur and night's were just the same eighteen year's of being nothing but a bad kid pill after pill of new drug's to 'help' him fit in and be normal.

Looking around being an adult now year's of school behind him, those pill's behind him. It didn't matter anymore, the pill's were not there anymore. It was now just him even that had no effect on people around him. He was still an outcast, nowhere to really call his own. Through this time he had managed to meet many other exciting and talented people, each had their own talent and ability. He stopped drawing stop writing stopped anything and everything that brought him even the slightest bit of joy or excitement. It had been so long and his body and mind had been through so much, happiness was a fairy tale. Something that brought him joy and he showed it was quickly kick or pulled away so his suffering would continue.

He had found those he thought he would spend his whole life with that maybe he would finally reach happiness and be joyful. As all good things they must pass, which each time his heart would beat it would crumble and shatter for the next to do the same. "Why do you do this to yourself? When you know that no mater what you're going to get hurt... If you know your being taken advantage of why do you let them?" "Because for that small time before I am... happy nothing but them can end it for me.. and when they do.. I can't help but forgive them and help them no matter what." "But your suffering from their gain" "Yeah...isn't that what love is.. if you love someone aren't you suppose to put yourself through hell so you can be with them? So you can show them that you love them no matter what?" "..." "... cause.. that's how I love no matter how much they hurt me or abuse me I love them cause maybe they will see that and not hurt me anymore.." "Your pathetic ... you're going to get yourself killed" "yeah... probably.." Looking at himself in the mirror, talking with himself as he went off to work.

Telling himself, "Maybe one day things will change... they will change" Shaking his head knowing better than to have false hope about people changing. It seemed his whole life other's always had to keep him down, helping out those he called friends was not something that kept him down as often. Each of his friend's usually had a problem he would put on his shoulders so they would be happy he didn't want those he cared about to suffer from sadness and sorrow. Those that made it their personal mission to keep even a glimmer of happiness were the ones he had to watch out for. Even if he knew what they were doing he would walk right into it so they could be happy. If his body would be striped from all the times he would be put down for showing or having a little bit of happiness or excitement his whole body would be riddled with them all over.

Sitting at his desk of his job in his cubical working day and night just to make enough to survive in a world that was only against him. He hadn't met anyone that had not hurt him in some form and way. moving a button of the chest of his shirt and pulled out his heart looking at it in his hand. The scar's and shattered pieces leaking out onto his desk wrapping up what he could with some tape before pushing it back into his chest. "Come on.. Last just a little longer.." he said to heart he had been told to go find someone to fix it, but every time he thought he might have found someone to help fix it. It only got torn open more and pieces would fall. leaning against the wall of his cubical as the wall moved suddenly as someone new had pushed against the wall some. Sitting up as he heard his name being called out, turning around it was one of the bosses. "Good evening! Mr. please would you assist one of our new crew member to our happy family!" His boss asked as he stood up and nodded, "Yes sir.." "This is Miss." Looking next to his cubical seeing a beautiful women her eyes shined with a cheerful and happy exterior.

Deep into her eyes he could see a scared person running around trying to make sure everything on her first day went smoothly. He offered his hand with a soft smile closing his eyes, "Welcome to the family" he extended a welcoming hand. Her eyes light up and took his hand softly. "Oh thank you! Yes I'm happy to be here! uh.. Mr.?" "Now be good to our new family member" the boss chimed in before leaving the two by themselves. He looked and waited until the boss was gone glancing at her more. "You can calm down now.. He's gone now let's get you set up." He said sitting back in his chair, he would glance at her. He had already liked the look she had in her eye's, plus the color was exotic to look at. Thinking about it he liked the sound of her voice also even if was very cheery and a bit shaky from how nervous she was.

Through out the day, week he would teach her about what she was suppose to do only with the boss checking in every few day's or so. He liked her intelligence which made him smile and feel a bit of happiness being around her. It was a month after she arrived he began noticing the sign's of a promising mate in her. He would note her body she was plump her clothing did her body justice, maybe just maybe this was the one.

"Lazy Song" by Bruno Mar's my version

 "The Lazy Song"

The cloud's slowly move along the sky as the sun rise's up over the horizon. “Today I don't feel like doing anything" Bird's slowly glide from one cloud to another, a brick building is under the cloud as a window is open letting the breeze blow through. "I just wanna lay in my bed" a foot hang's off the side of the bed. The blanket is a mess covering half the body under them, before the toe's wiggled then stretched. the blanket is bundled up against the body as it sinks to the ground crawling toward's the bathroom.  While in the bathroom the phone ring's three times letting the answering machine pick up "Don't feel like picking up my phone So leave a message at the tone 'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything.”

Coming out of the bathroom with the blanket draped over a foxes shoulders, “Uh!" sluggishly making their way into the living room noticing the smell of coffee in the air as the other room on the other side of the living room was open. The television was on as a fist shot up in the air, turning their head to see that a silver wolf was on the couch playing a game on the console. "I'm gonna kick my feet up, then stare at the fan." scooting across the floor before plopping down on the couch kicking their feet up on the coffee table. "Turn the TV on, throw my hand in my pants, nobody's gonna tell me I can't” staring at the television before slipping their paw from under the blanket grabbing another controller signing into the console joining the wolf in their game.

 Time went on as the wolf had left for work, the fox was still under the blanket laying on the couch half asleep staring at the television “I'll be lounging on the couch, just chillin' in my snuggie" Idly clicking the remote on top of the blanket before it stopped on a music station "Click to MTV, so they can teach me how to dougie 'cause in my castle I'm the freaking man”

An hour went by before the fox sat up on the couch and made their way to the kitchen grabbing a tv dinner from the freezer. The radio was on in the roommate's room “Oh, yes I said it, I said it, I said it 'cause I can!” The lyric's seemed to echo throughout the apartment. Humming to the song bobbing their head before the blanket fell off their shoulder's. Using their hind foot picking it up with the thumb and index toe kicking it into their room as it scooted across the floor. “Today I don't feel like doing anything I just wanna lay in my bed" the bell for the microwave rang before.

The phone rang again before the answering machine answered the phone call "Don't feel like picking up my phone" Leaning against the doorway listening to the message. "So leave a message at the tone 'cause today I swear I'm not doing anything” it was work calling for the fox to come into work trying to bribe them to come in with food. Looking at the calendar noticing the red mark's showing how much they had been working with time's etched into the day's.

 Deleting the message's yawning out combing through their fur upon their head with their digit's. “Nothing at all! Ooh, hoo, ooh, hoo, ooh, ooh-ooh" sitting back onto the couch grabbing the controller and placed a headset upon their head. "Nothing at all Ooh, hoo, ooh, hoo, ooh, ooh-ooh” hours seemed to go by jumping on the couch in excitement, then staring at the screen with an intense look upon their face. Slamming on the button's bobbing and weaving their body as if they were inside the game.

 Swinging their hips to a song on youtube dancing around the room.“Tomorrow I'll wake up, do some P90X" jumping up and down in their own little moshpit singing along and dancing if nobody else was listening or watching. In the doorway watching was the silver wolf "Meet a really nice girl, have some really nice sex" walking inside quietly closing the door and began dancing with them "And she's gonna scream out: 'This is Great'" jumping seeing the wolf was back and dancing with them"(Oh my God, this is great!) Yeah” laughing as they both began dancing as if no care's.

A little bit afterward there was a knock at the door as the landlord a plump rhino wearing glasses was standing there arm's crossed “I might mess around, and get my college degree I bet my old man will be so proud of me" they began talking about the noise and that they were getting complaint's to just keep it down. "But sorry pops, you'll just have to wait Haha” agreeing with the landlord and closed the door. Looking at each other laughing some going back to dancing and singing but a little quieter.

The wolf jumped out of their room with the blanket wrapped around their shoulders having a plastic sword “Oh, yes I said it" the fox did the same as they both trotted around as if riding a horse "I said it, I said it 'cause I can” swinging their sword's at one another battling in their own world. “Today I don't feel like doing anything I just wanna lay in my bed" The door opened as a pizza delivery tiger was standing there looking at the two. Then was knighted by the wolf to be the kingdom's delivery person. The tiger went along with it and bowed their head holding the pizza above their kneeled body. "Don't feel like picking up my phone So leave a message at the tone" placing a pouch of coin's and bills in the tiger's paw the fox took the pizza's and dismissed them before trotting to the table. "'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything”

Sitting at the table still wearing their outfit's of medieval garment's even if it was just imagination. “No, I ain't gonna comb my hair 'Cause I ain't going anywhere" the foxes blanket slide down their body showing they were in the buff "No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no" the wolf looked at the fox giving a thumbs up letting their blanket plop onto the ground showing they were also in the buff. "I'll just strut in my birthday suit And let everything hang loose" they both laughed a bit of soda came out of the foxes nose which made them laugh harder getting a bit of pizza everywhere." Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah”

 The night was soon upon them as they were on the couch playing some video game's “Ooh Today I don't feel like doing anything I just wanna lay in my bed" the wolf yawned before signing out and heading to take a shower. The fox stayed on the couch playing for a while before their cellphone rang in their room. "Don't feel like picking up my phone So leave a message at the tone 'Cause today I swear I'm not doing anything” The answering machine picked up once again this time for the cellphone. Turning off the tv and console the fox stretched scratching their body before walking to their room. “Nothing at all Ooh, hoo, ooh, hoo, ooh, ooh-ooh Nothing at all" curling up on the blanket on the bed letting the blanket coil up around their body."Ooh, hoo, ooh, hoo, ooh, ooh-ooh Nothing at all” snoring in bed as drool was slowly leaking out the corner of their mouth.

The spread of love

A slow rhythmic beeping echoes in a silent room, as there is much hustle and bustle outside of the room up and down the halls. In the room laid a man with I-v's and other hoses attached to his body his breathing was slow but anything other than stable. Air being pushed into his nose through a breathing mask, making his lungs fill with oxygen. A hand reached over the rail on the side of the bed touching his hand carefully gripping it with tears in her eyes. "H-hey.. it's.. I.. it's me Susan..." a lump in her throat as she spoke, "Re-remember when we went sledding? It was my first time and you.. you pushed me into a snow bank" She bit her tongue trying to laugh but it only came out as a sorrow filled sniffle. "I-I was so mad at you, but that was one of the best times I have ever had..."

The door slowly slid open a large bouquet of flowers flowing through the room as another female came in clinching the flowers in a vase. Stepping forward looking at the other women as she stepped through the door, "I.. oh i'm sorry I .. I must have the wrong room.." Susan shook her head, "It.. it's okay what room are you looking for?" her hand moved from his as she placed it back into her lap. "I.. I'm looking for Mr. Drakes room.." Her head turned and looked out to the front of the door at the name placements as it said in the first bed slot, 'Osworth' the second bed slot 'Drake' The lady soon leaned back into the room and looked at the man in the bed next to Susan more closely. "Drake.." her eyes started to fill up with water. Walking over to the bed but stayed her distance gripping the vase even more closer to her body. "H-how.. " Susan turned to the other lady, "They say he was in a wreck.. with a few other vehicles.." Susan's eyes water more as a quiver of a smile came to her face.

"They said they found him helping some of the people to safety... but collapsed after everyone was out of danger" The other lady scooted slowly closer to his bed, "H-heh.. just like him.. to help.." Susan nodded in agreement as she reached over once more taking his hand in hers. "Always playing the hero.. ha.." she replied, as the other lady nodded her head quickly placing the flowers down near the foot of the bed.  "I'm Candise by the way.. I'm sorry to barge in.." Susan stood up and nodded as they both shook hands wiping their eyes of tears. Susan stood up as they both embraced in a hug both needing one as tears came from them both.

After tears were shed they both walked out of the room into the visitor's room as their were other's there waiting. A few asleep in their chair's as others were watching and talking about the weather, old tv show's. Susan cleared her throat wiping her eye's "E-everybody... this is Candise." Almost the whole room was filled with people and they turned to Candise getting wide eyed. "She's the fiancé?! we've heard so much about?!" They seemed to flock over to her giving Candise multiple embraces and tears of joy. Candise looked at them all confused with many emotions going through her head as she smiled happily to have so much support in this time. Giving them all hugs and greetings feeling a bit better in this situation. One sat there glaring at her though through the whole time spiteful and angry at her.

Candise looked at everyone finally finding the word's to express what was going on. "T-thank you.. y-yes I'm Charles fiancé. But.. I-i'm sorry but who are all you people? How do you know Drake? I don't believe I have met any of you before.." The room went a bit quiet, but the television talking about the storm along the golf coast going towards Texas. "Um well we are um.. his friends" One nodded but the crowd of people was soon interrupted by the one in the chair. "We are his girlfriends.. The one's that love him more than you could ever!!" She sat there crossing her arms under her bust glaring at her with such hate.

Susan gulped softly, "J-jackie this is not the time or place... now shush" Candise's face went pale, "Wh-what.. are you talking about? what does she mean girl-girlfriends?!" Looking at each one of the females, then looked at a few of the males also. "A-are you his boyfriends too?" Larry smiled softly, "oh sweetie we wish.. believe me.." Candise's eyes filled with tears, "he-he's been cheating on me this whole time?!... when! where! how?!" Her look turned from hurt to a icy stare, "tell me I demand to know!?" Susan shook her head, "It's not what you think.. we-" Jackie interrupted, "before you even came into the picture now get out of his life and he and we will be off better for it!" Larry had sat back down next to Jackie covering her mouth, "Shhh now now stop it.. she doesn't mean it she just.. a little huffy.." Candise began shedding tears looking at them all, "why... what.."

Susan took Candise's hand before she jerked away, running away crying heavily. Susan looked at Jackie, "look what you've done.." turning around and went after Candise barely catching the elevator that she was in. Susan stood in front of the doorway as the doors closed behind her. "Candise please listen to me it.. its not what you think.." Candise crying in the corner clenching her fist's, "get away from me..." Susan shook her head, "No not until you listen.. please give me a chance to explain everything.. please" Candise sniffled and held her eyes wiping them with her fists, "you have 5 minutes.." Susan took a deep breath, "... can we get something to eat or drink.. some coffee.. please"

Candise shook her head, but nodded afterward, "You're paying for it.." Susan nodded her head, "yes.." After the doors opened they both slowly made their way to the cafeteria. As Candise began grabbing food left and right as Susan followed paying for it all at the cashier. They both sat down as Candise shook in her seat sipping the coffee. "Where.. where do I begin?.." Susan sighed softly. Candise growled out, "when my husband to be began having affairs with all of you!" Susan shook her head, "it's.. not like that.." Her hand's shook gripping her coffee tighter, "Then what is it?!" Susan rang her finger around in circle's. "We.. we all have different reason's why we call him our boyfriend.. for me.. he helped me with so much.. If it wasn't for him being so supportive, loving and caring I wouldn't have gotten as far as I have. We are all very fond of him, he is an amazing man you have and you're lucky to have him."

"That's right I have him.. not-not you.." she said spiteful, "No you're missing the point.. he has been there when nobody else would or had turned away from us.. seen us at our worse and like how he... how he.. got where he is now.. he didn't stop and helped with so much love that he gave us all being supportive and being there when we needed him." tears began to slowly stream down her face as she thought of all the times he had helped her out and pulled her out of the hole she had made. "I.. I know you may not understand this, but we are happy that he has you... he speaks of you often and is very proud of you of what you have done." Candise held her cup and sniffled tears running down her cheeks listening. "Please.. come back up and.. talk with us.. if nothing else could you stay for him.. You don't have to speak to anyone but I know he would be overjoyed to see you if.. when.. when he wakes up"

Candise and Susan sat there eating silently thinking of everything that has happened. After eating for a while and the tears were shed into eating instead of words being said. Slowly they made their way to the elevators, it was a silent ride up to the fourth floor. The fourth floor was for urgent care and those to be watched over. The doors opened as Candise and Susan walked out slowly Susan went to the waiting room. Candise stopped at his closed door, before slowly opening it up seeing Jackie sobbing and gripping at his arm laying slightly on his bed. "Please don't leave me... I promise I'll do anything you want ... but please don't leave me.. not you.. please come back." her tears were soaking into the sheets. "You said you'd never leave.. You promised!" her sobbing came more frantic.

Candise stood in the doorway listening and watching.

Just a thought

So i have been thinking some on this but. What if pokemon was switched what pokemon would want to catch you.. What number would you be? What abilities would or could you bring to the table? What would make you unique to be the one being caught?
Im sure this question has been asked and there is probably a book being written about it or something. But just think about it what if roles were reversed in any and all things you like. Say for instance that book or tv show you just got done with. What if you was in it who what would you be and that character you replaced is now the one reading or watching tv.

Shay's voyage

Smiling softly at the camera her chubby cheeks blushing in embaressment " h-hello world hehehe.. Um oh my hehe.. I'm shay aaannd welcome to shay's awesome adventure of epicnesss!!" she was shy at the start but took a deep breath this was the twentieth time she had started recording. Her stomach was all in knot's as she gulped staring at the camera lens. " he..heh oh right my names shay oh I already said that.. Well um im 25 now and ooo i got my cat shadow!!" picking up a white and gray cat as it meowed with her picking it up. She giggled softly and let the cat down. Hours had passed as she took the camera and was video taping around the home. Showing off her boyfriend mostly as he was on his phone or on a console playing a game.
She then turned off the camera editing it on the laptop as she sat next to him on the couch. Humming to herself before reaching down and touching his thigh his leg jolted away from her as he played his game with a humph. She frowned some but kept a smile on her face typing and talking to friends online and calling on her cellphone.
One day a friend of hers was nearby and asked if he could visit. She jumped with glee as they hadn't seen each other in a long time and she was overjoyed to have sometime with friends. Well those that weren't  around that much running around through the day's she worked hard each day and night. So a relaxing day with friends was one thing she needed from all the stress.
Soon it waa time for them to meet as they met at a fanciest restaurant there was a burgerking. It was her boyfriends idea to meet in a public place which her friend didn't mind. Sitting down at a table she waited before her eyes were covered and a dark and mysterious voice whispered into her ears. "My oh my what is a pretty thing like you doing in a low class place like this?" she was afraid for a moment but smiled some " oh little ol me im just waiting for a big young stud to take me away from this place and show a lady a real good time." her eyes were uncovered as a male stood behind her putting a hand on her shoulder acting dramatic " oh but i cannot.. For it is.. I.. Have .... A hungry" they both gasp and laugh. Sitting down he held her hands softly "oh my goodness it's been so long.. How have you been? What have you been up to?" they talkes it seemed for hour's both laughing and smiling.
Just as soon as the good time's were there they were gone. Giving her a number and address of where he was staying for a few nights. She looked at the address and nodded. "We've got to do this again before you leave it was great" he smiled happily "im glad i had a great time too.. Well see ya around" watching him leave as he watched her leave making sure she left alright.

It had been two night's after their get together. Sniffling and crying heavily after a large fight between her and her boyfriend had broke out. Driving to a hotel she looked at the direction's before pulling into the drive way and looking around before parking. Opening up the door tobher car wiping her eyes quickly. She didn't call him to tell him she was on. Her way she just needed a friend and right now she knew she could go to him.

Walking up and down the hallway looking for his room number. knocking on the door hoping he would answer. Jolting awake he groaned staring at the time. " its not time to check out yet.. " crawling slowly out of bed half asleep and half awake. Grabbing his boxers and putting them on stumbling to the door as he opened it up. " hu?" was all he could studdard out before her arms wrapped around him sobbing against him.

"Sh..shay? What what's wrong?" he asked wrapping his arms around her holding her close to him. Before leading her into his room and closing locking the door. Stumbling with her clinging onto him mumbling and sobbing about what happened. He soon sat her down on the bed and got her some water and some tissues. Sitting next to her holding her hand and holding onto her when she could do nothing but cry. Soon they were laying together she was cradled up in his arms mumbling and sniffling.

Feeling his arms around her the warmth and strength of his arms she started to get aroused laying there with him. his touches and his attention were so gentle and caring something she had missed for so long. Which was half of what the fight was about. Her whole body was getting warm amd she began to fidget some. Her face flushing red at the thought's running through her head. She turned to him he was trying hard to stay awake but she had woken him up from his sleep.

She continued to fidget more pressing her legs together as she took deep breaths to try and compose herself. His hand then touched her hips slowly began caressing and rubbing up then back down her side. Barely touching the skin under her clothing. She panted some feeling more hot and overheated her body froze stiff feeling his breath on the back of her neck."would you like some more water?" she nodded quickly" yyes please.."

Scooting around as he got up she could feel his length and how it had grown from their cuddling on the bed. Her eyes darted around before she looked finally at it. Her eyes began darting around more blushing some more. She soon stood up and rushed to the bathroom closing the door behind her. "Sh..shay you okay.." she mumbled some " i.. I.. Yeah just... Need to do something... Private.. " " ooh okay sorry um the fart fan is the second switch... Just incase.. " she nodded quickly turning on the fan even quicker.

She could hear his footsteps walking away feom the bathroom as she stripped down to ber panties and bra panting softly as she was wet and it was running down her thigh slowly. She whimpered softly to herself and began playing with herself keeping it down. But soon as she was close it went away she was getting Frustrated with herself as she kept trying and trying. Walking out of the bathroom in just her panties and bra she seen him laying there worn out.

Huffed in anger but in a way glad she left her clothes on the chair ans climbed in bed with him. He wrapped his arms around her once more. Her mouth opened she could feel his body pressing up against her and her body pressing back. She closed her eyes moving his hands to her breasts. Slowly making his hands squeeze her breasts as her heat would rise once again slipping her hand down and began playing with herself once more. It wasn't long till she had released hard on her fingers before feeling something pressing yp against her panties she looked behind her he was awake and had watched her the whole time.

Her last memory was of him taking her that night like she hadnt been foe a long long time. In the morning she awoke in the bed still wearing her panties and bra. Her clothes were at the edge of the bed. Soon slowly reaching down she was still wet and was still the same size as she was before. Did she dream of the whole thing he wasn't anywhere in the room but soon as she got up and put on ber shirt and pants the dooe opened. He walked in with a soft smile on his face" heh afternoon sleepy head.. Lunch?" he had brought her some food as well as him "did you say afternoon... Wait.. Did we?" he looked at her and softly chuckled " no.. No. Ha very tempting but... You passed out after your... Um.. Time" her face was bright red " then you... We.. You" shaking his head " i woke up when i heard something and it looked like you had just.... Calmed down as they say" grabbing her things as she blushed heavily and ran out the door.

Story time

Gather round kiddies and children boys and girls of all ages its story time todays story is about livelihood. 

Dreams, fantasies, goals, wishes, creativity, imagination, hope are horrid expectations that get crushed and thrown away leaving you hurt and broken it's best not to have expectations that way you never have to get hurt and broken. But there is a way to help you fix this before you get hurt take all you imagination, dreams, hopes put them in a jar seal it up and hide it away from you and everyone else that way nobody will crush it and you'll live empty and hollow trying things to fill that part of you that you've sealed away but it is for your own good. There will always be someone smarter, stronger, better than you no matter who you are someone will always be better no matter what you do. These days are dark and grim so help yourself and hide away all your thoughts before you fall victim of this. Good night and sweet dreams while you sleep dream of something wonderous cause there is the only place you can do anything and everything you always wanted.